La Vita e Bella

Divorce and Divorcee

2006-12-26T20:35:00.000+07:00

Hari ini gw dapet berita yg bikin gw shock.
Seseorang yg deket ama gw bilang: "na, gw udah cerai."
Knapa?? Kok bisa sampe cerai???
Katanya udah dari +/- 2 bulan yg lalu, tapi ngajuin berkasnya ke pengadilan agama baru2 ini.
Dia blom cerita lengkap karna tadi gi jam kantor. Malem ini mungkin gw bakal tau lebih banyak. Itu juga klo dia mau cerita sih..
Hiks...
Padahal menurut gw dia itu tipe suami+bokap yg ideal..
Padahal gw sirik ama istrinya huehehe.. *hush.. malah ketawa.. suasana berduka neh*
Padahal anak2nya masih kecil, mana cakep+imut..
Kasian.. mereka kan gak salah apa2..
Gw masih blom percaya..
Jangan2 gw kebanyakan nonton infotainment neh >_<

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Ternyata gak semua orang bisa bersyukur atas semua yg udah dikasih ama Allah SWT *sigh*
Sabar yah, yang.. It's her losses anyway
Kamu udah berusaha ngejalanin semua dengan sebaik2nya, bahkan kadang berlebihan :p
You just deserve better

Ramadhan

2004-10-16T22:10:00.000+07:00

Met menjalankan ibadah puasa ya ^_^

Sibuk... Sibuk...

2004-09-25T22:11:00.000+07:00

Maap... blom sempet blogwalking
Lagi sibuk ama urusan perkuliahan neh :(

HELP!!!

2004-09-19T21:52:00.000+07:00

Seblomnya gw mo cerita kenapa blog ini terlantar (lagi!).
Maap... gak sempet blogwalking juga :(
Udah 3 minggu ini gw kuliah lagi, di MBA-ITB Kampus Cikarang *jauuuuuuh... banget*.
Jam 8 pagi - 3 sore, gw kerja magang di Jababeka.
Dilanjutin kuliah dari jam 4 sore ampe jam 9 malem.
Ternyata... capek sekali :D
Sekarang gw udah gak bisa jalan-jalan dengan bebas lagi :(
Senen ampe jumat gw di cikarang, cuma wiken doang bisa ke jakarta.
Tapi gak brarti bisa nyante, gw balik dengan ngebawa tugas kuliah yg seabreg-abreg :p
Trus barusan temen gw nelpon, ternyata ada tugas yg kudu dikumpulin hari selasa, tapi gw gak tau >_<

Tolong bantuin gw nyari contoh sponsorship proposal perusahaan asing buat minta dana

(dari perusahaan ke perusahaan ataw dari masyarakat ke perusahaan).

Butuh minimal 10 contoh & kudu pake Bahasa Inggris.

Buat yang punya contoh proposalnya ataw tau linknya, pleeeeaaaaaseeeee..... jangan segan-segan kasih tau gw ya ;>

Because Of You.

2004-08-23T18:45:00.000+07:00

Gara-gara Keith Martin dateng ke Indonesia, lagunya jadi sering banget diputer diradio.
Sebenernya gw gak terlalu suka ama lagu ini seh. Tapi liriknya lumayan lah :)
Lagi pas ama suasana ati hehehe... ^_^

Because Of You.
Keith Martin

If ever you wondered if you touched my soul, yes you do.
Since I met you I'm not the same.
You bring life to everything I do.
Just the way you say hello.
With one touch I can't let go.
Never thought I'd fallen in love with you.

Because of you. My life has changed.
Thank you for the love and the joy you bring.
Because of you I feel no shame.
I'll tell the world it's because of you.

Sometimes I get lonely and all I gotta do is think of you.
You captured something inside of me.
You make all of my dreams come true.
It's not enough that you love me for me.
You reached inside and touched me internally.
I love you best explains how I feel for you.

Because of you. My life has changed.
Thank you for the love and the joy you bring.
Because of you I feel no shame.
I'll tell the world it's because of you

The magic in your eyes, true love I can't deny.
When you hold me I just lose control.
I want you to know that I'm never letting go.
You mean so much to me, I want the world to see it's because of you.

Because of you. My life has changed.
Thank you for the love and the joy you bring.
Because of you I feel no shame.
I'll tell the world it's because of you.

Capeeeek...

2004-08-21T22:47:00.000+07:00

Hari rabu+kamis, gw terkapar. Sedih deh sakit ndirian *hiks*
Udah aah... gak jaman melow-melowan :p
Ganti topik ya...
Kemaren gw beberes rumah *rajin euy!!!*
Dari mulai nyapu teras depan + belakang, nyapu + ngepel seluruh ruangan dalem rumah, nyikat kamar mandi, trus bakar sampah *karna males ngangkut sampah yg udah numpuk ke tempat penampungan sampah komplek yg berjarak kira-kira 25 m dari rumah :p*.
Ternyata kegiatan gw yg terakhir itu sangat lah tidak menyenangkan :(
Mata jadi pedes karna kena asep + nambah-nambahin polusi jakarta aja hehehe... :p
Gak lagi-lagi deh males buang sampah *janji*
Udah gitu, malemnya ngerjain tugas yg lebih berat lagi... NYETRIKA!!!
Setrikaan yg udah menggunung itu akhirnya dengan terpaksa dan berat hati kudu gw setrika secara manual euy T_T
Soalnya udah ampir seminggu ini gw liatin, tu setrikaan gak licin bin rapi juga >_<
Perjuangan gw nyetrika semakin terasa berat karna digodain mulu ama
Yayang.
Gw kudu bolak-balik ngangkat telpon rumah, padahal biasanya juga nelponnya ke hp *geleng-geleng*
Ternyata, cuma berhasil kelar separo *sigh*
jam 23:30 WIB dapet komplen dari Yayang, gw kudu istirahat, takut gw sakit lagi katanya.
Muuuuaaaaaaaaaach... *ciumin Yayang*
Tadi siang kegiatan nyetrika dilanjutin dan akhirnya...
Tumpukan pakaian kusut berubah jadi tumpukan pakaian yg rapi, licin & wangi
Juuuu... setrikaan gw dah beres *joget-joget*

Good News

2004-08-17T20:38:00.000+07:00

Posting apa yah? *lirik-lirik Juju yg lagi ngasah samurai*
Hmm... ini aja deh:
Adek gw, Femmy, sekarang dah gak jomblo lagi ^_^
Cowo'nya, Arie alias Goiq, ternyata temen blog gw yg dulu suka maen ke blog ini pake nama Pangeran Hantu waktu gw masih rajin posting dulu.
Busyet... dunia serasa sempit banget deh *geleng-geleng kepala*
Pokoknya gw ikutan bahagia, soalnya gw sayaaaang banget ama adek gw yg cuma atu-atunya ini *pelukin dinda tersayang*

Fresh!!!

2004-08-05T20:46:00.000+07:00

Hehehe...
Akhirnya jadi juga ganti leot *lega*
Makasih buat Juju & Ira yg dah bantuin nyari leot yg lucu ^_^
Warnanya seger, gambarnya juga seger hehehe...
Pokoknya gw puaaaas *joget-joget*

Terlantar

2004-07-28T20:15:00.000+07:00

Hiks...
Lama banget blog ini gw cuekin
Pengen ganti leot lagi deh
Cari template yg keren dimana yah? gw taunya blogskin doang :">
Ataw ada yg mo bikinin?
Liat ntar deh, klo males ya gak jadi ganti leot :p
Berita tentang gw:
Gw sekarang sibuk beres2 rumah
Nyapu, ngepel, nyuci, dll yg sejenis
Pembokat gw pulkam dan gak bakal balik lagi
Udah seminggu blom dapet gantinya :(
Trus bokap pengen gw sekolah lagi
Pengen seh... tapi gw takut mengecewakan beliau

Jangan Lupa...

2004-06-03T17:31:00.000+07:00

Hari : Jumat
Tgl : 4 juni 2004
Acara : Indonesian Idol di RCTI
Waktu : 19.00 WIB

Pilih : Nasir Arafah HM a.k.a Arif Marzuki (21 November 1981) asal Jakarta

Hiks...

2004-04-18T00:23:00.000+07:00

Napa gw gak bisa posting yah?

Top 10 Flirting Tips

2004-04-09T02:26:00.000+07:00

1. Smile.
It is contagious. It will make you so much more approachable. A smile lights up your face and draws people to you. You will be a eople magnet. Try it!

2. Compliment.
Compliment your flirting partner. The best compliments have the element of surprise. The "flirtee" will know that you really noticed them. Remember, your compliments must be honest, sincere and nuine. When you receive a compliment the best response is merely to say Thank You!

3. Eye contact.
Make eye contact, but please look your partner in the eye gently (no more than 2-4 seconds) and then glance away. Don't stare – it's a turn off.

4. Listen.
You have two ears and one mouth because you should listen twice as much as you speak. Listening is a true art. Your flirting partner will be drawn to you. Everyone loves to be heard.

5. Make the first move.
Move closer to the person you want to meet. Say hello! You can move closer to your perfect match online right now by contacting your perfect match for free.

6. Be the host.
Change your behavior from the role of guest to host. You are not the passive person in waiting, but rather the welcome committee.

7. Use props.
Never leave home without a prop. Props are natural conversation starters. They encourage conversation and others will be compelled to start talking to you. Great props include: dogs, kids, unusual jewelry, a fabulous scent, a distinctive bag from your favorite store or an interesting book or newspaper.

8. Have fun.
Be playful, light-hearted and spontaneous. Show your vulnerability.

9. Start a conversation.
The best opening line is saying hello. Talk about the surroundings, ask a question, ask for help, make a joke, state an opinion. Make sure you are calm and composed but just do it before the person you've got your eye on walks out of the bar or passed you in the street, never to be seen again!

10. Flirting is all about attitude.
A good flirt is self-confident and not afraid to take risks. Be enthusiastic, open and positive. It works!

Obrolan di YM

2004-03-22T18:59:00.000+07:00

Gw dah posting lagi neh... ^_^
Kmaren2 gw males aja...
Trus, tadi ngobs ama temen gw di ym
Gw kupi paste tuh dibawah

temen (5:41:12 PM): eh g nemu co yg g taksir pas smp dl
temen (5:41:21 PM): keren bou fotonya
temen (5:41:43 PM): trus kan g kirim mssg via frenster, eh dibales lho, & kynya masi inget ma g
gw(5:42:13 PM): hehehe
gw (5:42:22 PM): ada gunanya jg frenster yah
temen (5:42:39 PM): iyah, pdhl kmaren2 nyari mantan2 tp ga ada yg ktmu
gw (5:43:43 PM): jangan mantan atuh
gw (5:43:50 PM): yg fresh dong aah
temen (5:44:04 PM): abis mantan ada yg tobh bgt siy ..
temen (5:44:14 PM): klo aja ga leboy .. dl ga g lepas
gw (5:44:38 PM): ooow
gw (5:44:44 PM): top gmana neh?
temen (5:45:06 PM): cakep (sayangnya website dia dl dah down, pdhl byk foto2nya)
temen (5:45:09 PM): tinggi
temen (5:45:22 PM): pinter (udah s2 bou, s1 + s2 di amrik)
temen (5:45:37 PM): dah gawe (trakhir g denger di cikarang)
gw (5:45:43 PM): hayah
gw(5:45:46 PM): top abis tuh
temen (5:45:49 PM): hmm apalagi ?
gw (5:46:00 PM): kejer, men (temen maksudna)
temen (5:46:04 PM): nyokap nya gawe di asean ato pbb gt, g lp yg mana
gw (5:46:07 PM): gebet... pepet...
gw (5:46:20 PM): bungkus... dsb yg sejenis lah
temen (5:46:20 PM): bokap nya dokter, dl pas ktm gawe di bank dunia
temen (5:46:25 PM): gmn ga mupeng ?
gw (5:46:29 PM): ketemu dmana lu?
temen (5:46:30 PM): + anak tunggal
gw (5:46:33 PM): aiih
temen (5:46:47 PM): hmm dl pas jaman2 mirc masi trendi, g dikenalin ma tmen g dstu
gw (5:46:48 PM): lengkaplah sudah kebahagiaan dunia
gw (5:46:57 PM): eeh
gw (5:47:05 PM): ada atu tuh pertanyaan
temen (5:47:05 PM): kcuali 1 ... dia leboy
temen (5:47:10 PM): apaan ?
gw (5:47:17 PM): hehehe
gw (5:47:25 PM): temen gw dulu pernah nanya gini
temen (5:47:30 PM): knp ?
gw (5:47:58 PM): lu mo gak pacaran ama cowo cakep, kaya, pinter, baek, alim, dsb... yg sejenis
gw (5:48:03 PM): gw bilang jelas dong
gw (5:48:17 PM): trus temen gw bilang tapi ada atu kekurangannya
temen (5:48:22 PM): apa tu ?
temen (5:48:24 PM): homo ?
temen (5:48:33 PM): psycho ?
gw (5:48:37 PM): gw penasaran nanya apaan? siapa tau bisa diubah
gw (5:48:40 PM): bukan
temen (5:48:49 PM): trus ?
gw (5:48:53 PM): itunya gak bisa berdiri
gw (5:49:00 PM): hehehe
temen (5:49:08 PM): gapape
temen (5:49:09 PM): soal itu cari co laen
temen (5:49:16 PM): co yg ini buat nyediain duitnya
gw (5:49:21 PM): dasar
temen (5:49:27 PM): lho ?
temen (5:49:31 PM): daripada daripada ?
gw (5:49:36 PM): iya juga yah
temen (5:49:45 PM): ato ya ntar minta duit buat beli dildo aja klo gt hiihhi
gw (5:49:48 PM): tapi waktu itu gw jawabnya gak mau
gw (5:49:59 PM): hayah
gw (5:50:10 PM): emang enak pake dildo
temen (5:50:15 PM): tauk
gw (5:50:23 PM): lebih enak yg aseli dong
temen (5:50:23 PM): drpd ga mo cr co laen ?
temen (5:50:38 PM): ya brarti cr co laen klo gt
temen (5:50:54 PM): tar minta "uang jajan" nya ma co yg ini

Naah...
Itulah hasil obrolan gw ama temen gw
Gak bermanfaat?
Ya sutra lah... iseng doang ^_^

Question:

2004-03-01T00:38:00.000+07:00

What If I'm Gone?

Thanks, Guys!

2004-02-26T04:34:00.000+07:00

Wuuuuaaaaah.... dah pagi aja
Nonton TV, maen game, baca buku sambil denger musik, dsb... dsb...
Mata gw malah jadi tambah seger...
Kalo bokap tau gw blom bobo... weits...
*Ngebayangin bokap ceramah*
Makasih buat temen-temen di conference ym semalem. Udah pada ngerelain telinganya terkontaminasi suara gw. Kalian baeeeek deh, gak pada jerit-jerit kesakitan *terharu*
Yup! semalem gw nyanyi, sodara-sodari!!!
Lagunya Cranberries, "Dreams"
Hehehe... pe-de yah gw... ^_^
Maklum aja deh, semalem urat malu lagi putus
Buat yg gak sempet dengerin, don't worry
Bisa nonton live ataw di TV ( Indosiar ) malem minggu ini *Itu bukannya Grand Final AFI, Na?*
Uuugh... tetep gak bisa bobo neh gw...
Ya sutralah...
Dengerin aja Dolores yg asli nyanyi yah... ^_*

Something Different?

2004-02-20T12:35:00.000+07:00

There's something different in this blog.
Did u notice it? no? well... take your time ^_^
Ok... how bout now?
New layout?
Nope... still the old one...
*Don't have any plan to change it yet*
Different messages in the taggie?
Yeah... right *sigh*
Hmm... The background song?
Bingo! Yup... I've change it ^_^
Finally
It's my fave romantic song
Wanna sing along?

It's Probably Me
Sting

If the night turned cold
And the stars looked down
And you hug yourself
On the cold, cold ground
You wake the morning in a stranger's coat
No one would you see
You ask yourself, who'd watch for me
My only friend, who could it be
It's hard to say it
I hate to say it, but it's probably me

When you belly's empty
And the hunger's so real
And you're too proud to beg
And too dumb to steal
You search the city for your only friend
No one would you see
You ask yourself, who could it be
A solitary voice to speak out and set you free
I hate to say it
I hate to say it, but it's probably me

You're not the easiest person
I ever got to know
And it's hard for us both
To let our feelings show
Some would say I should let you go your way
You'll only make me cry
If there's one guy, just one guy
Who'd lay down his life for you and die
It's hard to say it
It's hard to say it, but it's probably me

When the world's gone crazy
And it makes no sense
There's only one voice
That comes to your defence
The jury's out and your eyes search the room
And one friendly face is all you need to see
If there's one guy, just one guy
Who'd lay down his life for you and die
It's hard to say it
I hate to say it, but it's probably me
I hate to say it
I hate to say it, but it's probably me

"Be My Valentine"

2004-02-16T03:17:00.000+07:00

Reasons why you should have make a computer your valentine!

1. A Computer can wait for you forever.

2. A Computer does not compare you with it's past users

3. A Computer does not mind if you have a Computer at home and in the office.

4. A Computer won't say lets just be friends.

5. You can mute the computer whenever you want.

6. It's easy to turn on a computer.

7. You never have to say sorry no matter what you do to it.

8. You don't have to give it expensive Valentine gifts, New Year gifts, Birthday gifts, Anniversary gifts.

9. You can upgrade your computer if you are not satisfied with its performance or specifications.

10. There is always Ctrl + Alt + Del

Did You Know?

2004-02-13T22:16:00.000+07:00

There are many companies / brands / products whose names were derived from
strange circumstances:

Mercedes:
This was actually the financier's daughter's name.

Adobe:
This came from name of the river Adobe Creek that ran behind the house of founder John Warnock.

Apple Computers:
It was the favorite fruit of founder Steve Jobs. He was three months late in filing a name for the business, and he threatened to call his company Apple Computers if the other colleagues didn't suggest a better name by 5 o'clock.

CISCO:
It is not an acronym as popularly believed. It is short for San Francisco.

Compaq:
This name was formed by using COMp, for computer, and PAQ to denote a small integral object.

Corel:
The name was derived from the founder's name Dr.Michael Cowpland. It stands for COwpland REsearch Laboratory.

Google:
The name started as a joke boasting about the amount of information the search-engine would be able to search. It was originally named 'Googol', a word for the number represented by 1 followed by 100 zeros. After founders - Stanford graduate students Sergey Brin and Larry Page presented their project to an angel investor, they received a cheque made out to 'Google'.

Hotmail:
Founder Jack Smith got the idea of accessing e-mail via the web from a computer anywhere in the world. When Sabeer Bhatia came up with the business plan for the mail service, he tried all kinds of names ending in 'mail' and finally settled for hotmail as it included the letters "html" - the programming language used to write web pages. It was initially referred to as HoTMaiL with selective uppercasing.

Hewlett Packard:
Bill Hewlett and Dave Packard tossed a coin to decide whether the company they founded would be called Hewlett-Packard or Packard-Hewlett.

Intel:
Bob Noyce and Gordon Moore wanted to name their new company 'Moore Noyce' but that was already trademarked by a hotel chan so they had to settle for an acronym of INTegrated ELectronics.

Microsoft:
Coined by Bill Gates to represent the company that was devoted to MICROcomputer SOFTware. Originally christened Micro-Soft, the '-' was removed later on.

Motorola
Founder Paul Galvin came up with this name when his company started manufacturing radios for cars. The popular radio company at the time was called Victrola.

ORACLE:
Larry Ellison and Bob Oats were working on a consulting project for the CIA (Central Intelligence Agency). The code name for the project was called Oracle (the CIA saw this as the system to give answers to all questions or something such). The project was designed to help use the newly written SQL code by IBM. The project eventually was terminated but Larry and Bob decided to finish what they started and bring it to the world. They kept the name Oracle and created the RDBMS engine. Later they kept the same name for the company.

Sony:
It originated from the Latin word 'sonus' meaning sound, and 'sonny' a slang used by Americans to refer to a bright youngster.

SUN:
Founded by 4 Stanford University buddies, SUN is the acronym for Stanford University Network. Andreas Bechtolsheim built a microcomputer; Vinod Khosla recruited him and Scot t McNealy to manufacture computers based on it, and Bill Joy to develop a UNIX-based OS for the computer.

Yahoo!:
The word was invented by Jonathan Swift and used in his book 'Gulliver's Travels'. It represents a person who is repulsive in appearance and action and is barely human. Yahoo! Founders Jerry Yang and David Filo selected the name because they considered themselves yahoos.

Kemaren...

2004-02-09T14:54:00.000+07:00

pagi, jam 9 kurang dikit, ortu gw dateng
rumah jadi rame...
baru juga ber-hai-hai ria ama bonyok,
eh... temen gw, K nelp
ngrumpi dah kita 1/2 jam-an
*gak sopan yah gw*
kalo gw gak ngobs bahwa ortu gw dateng,
bisa berjam-jam tuh hehehe...
trus gw disuruh mandi karna mo diajakin pegi
balik jam 1/2 5 an nyampe rumah
rencananya gw mo langsung tepar
tapi baru 1-2 menit pala gw nyentuh bantal
telp bunyi n bikin gw kaget
*tuh telp nongkrong deket bantal gw*
ternyata temen gw, R nelp
baru ngrumpi 5 menit... ada nada sela
ternyata temen gw yg laen, D
baru juga ngobs bentar
*setelah say goodbye ama si R*
nada sela lagi... sekali ini om gw yg nelp
*ngobs bentar*
ternyata D dah matiin telp
*hehehe... bete nunggu lu yah*
ya udah... gw mo lanjutin niat tepar gw
eit... telp bunyi lagi... *keukeuh ternyata*
ternyata D lagi, ngobs bentar
kepala gw pusing banget... tepar dah
gak asiknya, nyokap ngetok kamar jam 1/2 6
gw disuruh mandi n siap-siap
hehehe... mo kondangan kita... ^_^
nyampe balai samudera, dah rame euy...
dah banyak yg ngantri mo salaman
tamunya banyak menteri n pejabat
ternyata mereka gak segagah yg gw liat ditipi
trus mam dah kita
*bagian fave gw neh ^_^, nyummy*
pulangnya singgah bentar di kemang
bokap gw ada urusan dikit disono
pala gw tambah pusing
tapi gak menghalangi gw sms2an :p
dikit lagi nyampe rumah, hp gw bunyi
*no number*
pasti deh... dan ternyata bener
"call me after 5 minutes"
gw matiin deh tuh hp... ampe pagi
nyampe rumah, cuci muka, ganti baju
TEPAR DENGAN SUKSES

A Prayer

2004-01-31T22:05:00.000+07:00

(For Those Who Live Alone)

*Like me*

I live alone, Dear Lord,
Stay by my side,
In all my daily needs,
Be thou my guide.

Grant me good health,
For that indeed, I pray,
To carry on my work
From day to day.

Keep pure my mind,
My thoughts, my every deed
Let me be kind, unselfish
In my neighbor's need.

Spare me from fire, from flood,
Malicious tongues,
From thieves, from fear,
And evil ones.

If sickness or an accident befall,
Then humbly, Lord, I pray,
Hear thou my call.

And when I'm feeling low,
Or in despair,
Lift up my heart,
And help me in my prayer.

I live alone, Dear Lord,
Yet have no fear,
Because I feel your presence
Ever near.

Amen

Happy B'day Sis!

2004-01-28T08:53:00.000+07:00

Met ultah, Dinda Tersayang
Moga kuliahnya cepet kelar
Moga dapet cowo' yg baek (gw juga mauuuu...)
Moga tambah lutu... :p
Pokoke Wish u all the best lah, ki ^_^

PENGUMUMAN

2004-01-25T15:26:00.000+07:00

Allow semuanya... ^_^
Gw cuma mo ngasih tau neh
Besok, Senen, 26 Januari 2004, +/- 12:30 WIB
Gw mo nomat bareng beberapa temen blogger
Pelem yang mo ditonton blom tau judulnya apa
Intinya seh, ketemuannya yang lebih penting :D
Jadi, kalo lu berdomisili di Jakarta dan sekitarnya
Ataw kebeneran lagi maen ke Jakarta
Trus ada minat mo gabung, kontak gw yah ;)
Buat yang tau no. hp gw: silahkan kirim sms ataw telp
Buat yg laen: Lu bisa
1. PM gw di Y!M
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Chat Room Lies

2004-01-22T00:22:00.000+07:00

Just take a look at this picture, and you'll understand the whole story...
++ No Explanation Needed ++

SALVATION

2004-01-11T18:23:00.000+07:00

Torn from my dignity
Isolated in manic depression
Tortured by meaningless pride
Flustered with chaotic mind
Buried in total confusion
I wondered if it was destiny

I was through
Too tired to fight
I felt perfectly useless
Until you came to me
Shared your problems with me
Asking for help

All I could do was listen
All I could offer was a hug
All I could said were promises
That I would stand by you
That I would never let anyone harm you
That I would make sure everything's gonna be all right

You said, "I'm so lucky that I have you... What if I don't?"
I waited until you fell asleep
I watched your face
I cried silently
You thought that I'm your hero
Without knowing that You Are My SAVIOR

++ Dedicated to my beloved sister: Femmy Karima, thanks for everything, you make me feel needed, I love you ++

Persembahan Untukmu

2004-01-05T14:28:00.000+07:00

Inilah marahku,
Yang selama ini terkekang menghisap darahku.
Inilah sesakku,
Yang selama ini terbelenggu menahan nafasku.
Inilah murkaku,
Yang selama ini terpasung merusak otakku.
Aaaaarrrgghh.......
Persetan denganmu!

++ Enjoy The Scream ++

A Love Letter From Someone Very Special

2003-12-31T23:29:00.000+07:00

As you got up this morning, I watched you, and hoped you would talk to me, even if it was just a few words, asking my opinion or thanking me for something good that happened in your life yesterday. But I noticed you were too busy, trying to find the right outfit to wear. When you ran around the house getting ready, I knew there would be a few minutes for you to stop and say hello, but you were too busy. At one point you had to wait, fifteen minutes with nothing to do except sit in a chair. Then I saw you spring to your feet. I thought you wanted to talk to me, but you ran to the phone and called a friend to get the latest gossip instead. I watched patiently all day long. With all your activities I guess you were too busy to say anything to me.

I noticed that before lunch you looked around, may be you felt embarrassed to talk to me, that is why you didn't bow your head. You glanced three or four tables o! ver and you noticed some of your friends talking to me briefly before they ate, but you didn't. That's okay. There is still more time left, and I hope that you will talk to me yet. You went home and it seems as if you had lots of things to do. After a few of them were done, you turned on the TV. I don't know if you like TV or not, just about anything goes there and you spend lot of time each day in front of it not thinking about anything, just enjoying the show. I waited patiently again as you watched the TV and ate your meal, but again you didn't talk to me.

Bedtime I guess you felt too tired. After you said good night to your family you popped into bed and fell asleep in no time. That's okay because you may not realize that I am always there for you. I've got patience, more than you will ever know. I even want to teach you how to be patient with others as well.

I love you so much that I wait everyday for a nod, prayer or thought or a thankful part of your heart. It is hard to have a one-sided conversation. Well, you are getting up once again. And once again I will wait, with nothing but love for you. Hoping that today you will give me some time. Have a nice day!

Your Friend,

ALLAH

My Sweet Prince

2003-12-26T02:01:00.000+07:00

Never thought you'd make me perspire
Never thought I'd do you the same
Never thought I'd fill with desire
Never thought I'd feel so ashamed

Me and the dragon
Can chase all the pain away
So before I end my day
Remember

My sweet prince
You are the one
You are the one

Never thought I'd have to retire
Never thought I'd have to abstain
Never thought all this could back fire
Close up the hole in my vain

Me and my valuable friend
Can fix all the pain away
So before I end my day
Remember

My sweet prince
You are the one
You are the one

Never thought I'd get any higher
Never thought you'd fuck with my brain
Never thought all this could expire
Never thought you'd go break the chain

Me and you baby
Still flush all the pain away
So before I end my day
Remember

My sweet prince
You are the one
You Are The One

Happy Birthday, Mom

2003-12-25T23:19:00.000+07:00

Today is my mom's 49th birthday.
Happy Birthday, Mom

I'm wishing you all the best.
I wish i were there.
Hiks...hiks....

A Day In Your Life

2003-12-24T23:30:00.000+07:00

There will come a day in your life
That you will think you are alone
You will be hurt by your admirers
You will cry for me

I shall not hear you
I shall be beyond the galaxies
Out of your reach

I pray to God
That such a day...
Should never come in your life

But I am worried about my prayer
Because most of my prayers....
Are UNANSWERED....

Don't Judge A Book By Its Cover

2003-12-21T01:08:00.000+07:00

A lady in a faded gingham dress and her husband, dressed in a homespun threadbare suit, stepped off the train in Boston and walk timidly without an appointment into the Harvard University President's outer office.
The secretary could tell in a moment that such backwoods, country hicks had no business at Harvard and probably didn't even deserve to be in Cambridge.
"We want to see the president," the man said softly.
"He'll be busy all day," the secretary snapped.
"We'll wait," the lady replied.
For hours the secretary ignored them, hoping that the couple would finally become discouraged and go away. They didn't and the secretary grew frustrated and finally decided to disturb the president, even though it was a chore she always regretted.
"Maybe if you see them for a few minutes, they'll leave," she said to him.
He sighed in exasperation and nodded. Someone of his importance obviously didn't have the time to spend with them, but he detested gingham dresses and homespun suits cluttering up his outer office.
The president, stern faced and with dignity, strutted toward the couple.
The lady told him, "We had a son who attended Harvard for one year. He loved Harvard. He was happy here. But about a year ago, he was accidentally killed. My husband and I would like to erect a memorial to him, somewhere on campus."
The president wasn't touched.... He was shocked.
"Madam," he said, gruffly, "we can't put up a statue for every person who attended Harvard and died. If we did, this place would look like a cemetery."
"Oh, no," the lady explained quickly. "We don't want to erect a statue. We thought we would like to give a building to Harvard."
The president rolled his eyes. He glanced at the gingham dress and homespun suit, and then exclaimed, "A building! Do you have any earthly idea how much a building costs? We have over seven and a half million dollars in the physical buildings here at Harvard."
For a moment the lady was silent.
The president was pleased. Maybe he could get rid of them now.
The lady turned to her husband and said quietly, "Is that all it costs to start a university? Why don't we just start our own?"
Her husband nodded.
The president's face wilted in confusion and bewilderment. Mr. and Mrs. Leland Stanford got up and walked away, traveling to Palo Alto, California where they established the University that bears their name, Stanford University, a memorial to a son that Harvard no longer cared about.

++ You can easily judge the character of others by how they treat those who they think can do nothing. ++

It's All Up To You

2003-12-17T20:44:00.000+07:00

There're times that we have in doubts. Moments in our lives that need immediate actions. Situations that force us to make quick decisions. People said that opportunity doesn't come twice. Well, I guess it's true. We have to take the risks or just ignore it. I know .... you're gonna say that I am wrong. But for me, if similar thing happens once again in my life, it wouldn't be a second chance. It's just another opportunity that send from above. It would never be the same with the previous one. Sure, we do have to take a moment to think before we made up our minds, even for one second. So, the next time opportunity knockin' on your door, would you take it? My answer.... I'll think about it

THE FIRST STEP

Taking the first step is a frightened thing
To face the unknown matter
The unpredictable stuffs it might brings
But like a baby who get bored of crawling
The first step is the most important thing

The first step would widen your firmament
You would see the vision of a new light
The Joy Of discovery
Just like spreading wings and then flying
The first step that you take would open every locked doors
To look at yourself the way you didn't look at it before

Like a little child who would give up everything he had
For the sake of his first step
Sometimes he became unsteady, stumble and fall
But strong hands would catch him
Help him to get up on his little feet
So he could continue walking

The most long journey needs step after step
But once you begin to step forward
Everything is going to be all right
Take my hands, my love
I will help you
I will be right next to you
Because together we will be stronger

Yes, first step is a huge action
The most important matter above all
But I'll be there to catch you
If you stumble and fall
We will straighten up your vision ahead
Grind our teeth and keep on walking
And when we see the road end
We will chase it

I love you
I will assist you all the way
But taking the first step.......
Is all up to YOU

Another Episode Of Rama

2003-12-17T19:11:00.000+07:00

The clock showed 5:24 PM and I just came home when the phone rang. It turned out to be Rama, the one who called. He wanna shared his happiness with me. Today he make another commitment with a girl to be her boyfriend. I can't mention her name in here. He also said that he's totally recovered now. Hmm... Good News.

Missing Something?

2003-12-16T00:52:00.000+07:00

Punkish and Sayap Imaji must casted a spell on me. Since I read about Finch, "Letters To You", in their blogs, I made up my mind that I have to fulfill my curiosity. Today I've visited Renjana Ungu 'n Enola Mai's blog, and I got the song! Listening to this song make me emotianally disorder. There's a thrill inside me. Something's definitely missing. Aaahhh........

Another song with good lyric:

FIND A WAY TO MY HEART
Phil Collins

Find a way to my heart, and I will always be with you
From wherever you are, I'll be waiting
I'll keep a place in my heart, you will see it shining through
So find a way to my heart, and I will, I will follow you

This journey's not easy for you, I know
If your footsteps get too faint to hear, I'll go
Cos you know, questions are never that easy
And never the same
You have the answer believe me
If you have the faith

Find a way to my heart...

Time may come, and time may go, I know
If you should call out for me, I'll go
But you know, there is a code to be broken
I wrap it around
Without a word being spoken
Without a sound

There's a reason I hide my heart
Out of sight out of mind
And when I find out just who you are
The door will be open for you to..

Find a way to my heart...

+++ Dedicated to the love of my life: someday, somewhere, someway, we'll find each other soul +++

AMAZING...Don't Miss The Last One!

2003-12-14T16:42:00.000+07:00

* Coca-Cola was originally green.
* The most common name in the world is Mohammed / Muhammad.
* The name of all the continents end with the same letter that they start with.
* The strongest muscle in the body is the tongue.
* TYPEWRITER is the longest word that can be made using the letters only on one row ! of the keyboard.
* Women blink nearly twice as much as men!!!
* You can't kill yourself by holding your breath.
* It is impossible to lick your elbow.
* People say "Bless you" when you sneeze because when you sneeze, your heart stops for a millisecond.
* It is physically impossible for pigs to look up into the sky.
* The "sixth sick sheik's sixth sheep's sick" is said to be the toughest tongue twister in the English language.
* If you sneeze too hard, you can fracture a rib. If you try to suppress a sneeze, you can rupture a blood vessel in your head or neck and die.
* Each king in a deck of playing cards represents a great king from history:

Spades - King David,
Clubs - Alexander the Great,
Hearts - Charlemagne.
Diamonds - Julius Caesar.
* If a statue of a person in the park on a horse has both front legs in the air, the person died in battle.
* If the horse has one front leg in the air, the person died as a result of wounds received in battle.
* If the horse has all four legs on the ground, the person died of natural causes.
* What do bullet proof vests, fire escapes, windshield wipers and laser printers all have in common?

Answer: All invented by women.
* A crocodile cannot stick its tongue out.
* A snail can sleep for three years.
* All polar bears are left handed.
* American Airlines saved $40,000 in 1987 by eliminating one olive from each salad served in first-class.
* Butterflies taste with their feet.
* Elephants are the only animals that can't jump.
* In the last 4000 years, no new animals have been domesticated.
* On average, people fear spiders more than they do death.
* Shakespeare invented the word "assassination" and "bump".
* Stewardesses is the longest word typed with only the left hand.
* The ant always falls over on its right side when intoxicated.
* The electric chair was invented by a dentist.
* The human heart creates enough pressure when it pumps out to the body to squirt blood 30 feet.
* Rats multiply so quickly that in 18 months, 2 rats could have over million descendants.
* Wearing headphones for just an hour will increase the bacteria in your ear by 700 times.
* The cigarette lighter was invented before the match.
* Most lipstick contains fish scales.
* Like fingerprints, everyone's tongue print is different.

***And finally 99% of people who read this will try to lick their ~ELBOW~ !!! ***

I'm Back!!!

2003-12-14T16:27:00.000+07:00

After more than 2 weeks, here I am now.
Back to my place, home sweet home :>
Hmm.... so many things to do around da house.
So dirty and humid...
Huatchiiii......!!!

Several Hours Toward Idul Fitri

2003-11-24T10:58:00.000+07:00

Today is the last day of Ramadhan this year. I'm going home to celebrate Idul Fitri with my parents, sis, bro, and sis in law. Many things happened to me in this month, sad and happy moments. I hope it would make me stronger to live in my chaotic serenity. Ya Allah, please give me Your blesses so I could meet another Ramadhan next year. Amin.

Rama is Home

2003-11-23T22:43:00.000+07:00

Rama arrived at 13:20 pm. I had to pay for his taxi charge since he didn't had any money left. His look was awful, tired & dirty. He hadn't taken shower since the day he left his home. He was still sick. I called Anggo to let him know that Rama had arrived. I let him sleep till adzan Maghrib, and then I woke him up. After broke the fast and ate some snacks, Rama took a shower n changed his clothes with my T-shirt and short pants. Rama didn't eat much like he used to neither finish his avocado juice. At 19:40 PM, Anggo came. He succeeded in persuading Rama to come with him back to their home. He made sure that everything is going to be all right and then they left my house.
I hope everything IS really going to be all right. Amin

What A Day!

2003-11-22T23:33:00.000+07:00

Finally I knew where Rama was. He went to Palembang to meet his former girlfriend. The girl had called me at 11:25 AM to give this information. Neither one of us had any clues what thing that led him to do that. After several phone calls, from persuasion to compulsion to ultimatum, it ended with good news at 16:50 PM. Rama agreed to come back to Jakarta. With one condition, he refused to go home for temporary. Instead he would stay at my house for a while. Well, at least he would be here, so his family shouldn't have to search for him no more.
Rama's mother eyes still drench with tears and his father suffer in bewildered. And Anggo? I think he really worry about his brother safety. I could see it in his eyes when he came to my house this afternoon. He looked tired too, coz he couldn't sleep last night. He had searched for Rama since yesterday, although without his father permission at first. Hmmm... nice brother :>
Back to Rama, his parents gave me the authority to give him some advices. The last call from his father was at 21:35 PM. He shared some of his feelings bout this matter. I hope Rama would listen to me. May Allah bless him and his family with harmony. Amin.

Rama, Where Are You?

2003-11-21T22:05:00.000+07:00

Bad news!!! My friend, Rama, had runaway from his home since this afternoon. His brother, Anggo, came by to see whether he had gone to my house or not. His mom was crying many times, I guess she couldn't sleep well tonight. His Dad called me couple times. It's really weird, coz Rama didn't tell me anything bout this. He didn't even call me today. Usually, he called me at least one time a day. The worst thing is, he went in a bad condition. Rama is sick since yesterday. And he didn't bring anything with him.
Rama, where are you? If you happen to read this, please call me. I hope you'll be all right, wherever you are now. May Allah SWT always protect you all the way. Amin.

Couple Hours with Indah

2003-11-20T22:22:00.000+07:00

Today I had my Iftar with Indah, my best girlfriend. We made an appointment to meet at Bakmi Gajah Mada Sarinah. But I couldn't come on time coz of the traffic jam at Jl. Pramuka. It made me upset, coz I don't meet Indah too often. That's why every second is precious for us. Indah is a smart, sweet and nice girl that anyone could know. We ate much there ;> We even had ordered meals three times. Indah had brought me some cakes too. After had a great conversation, we went home with full stomachs :>

Thought of Beauty

2003-11-20T09:57:00.000+07:00

This is what my friend Yasir ever said
I think it's a good one

"One is not loved because she's beautiful
But she's beautiful because one loves her
Love makes some one beautiful"

Well, don't judge the book by its cover
Who knows, you probably love the content,
After you read it ;>
Let's find out the beauty within!

Ironic

2003-11-20T09:40:00.000+07:00

Isn't it ironic?
Some people still care about us,
Whether or not we appreciate it.
On the other hand,
Some others still didn't notice us,
Eventhough we did everything for them.

So, look around you thoroughly
There might be someone need you
You'd find out what you've still missed

Recently, I like to listen to Lene Marlin's song.
Below is the song's lyric:

You Weren't There
Lene Marlin

She came home, just won the game
Long time struggle she fulfilled her dream
All she wanted was to make you proud,
You weren't there

He had his birthday few days ago
He got some presents, a big party too
And there were congratulation calls
As the years before, not ever one from you

(+)
You weren't there, distant, far away
It's like this everyday,
They see you in their heads
Wonder if you'll come
Afraid to close their eyes,
And miss you once again

She cut herself on a piece of paper
It didn't hurt, but she saw the blood
She could need that embrace,
You weren't there

Did he have to cry louder,
Would that make you hear him
You see, his heart was broken,
For the first time

(+)

Cannot turn back time,
A wish yet to come true
They're making up these stories about you

(+)

Have You Ever Felt It?

2003-11-19T22:39:00.000+07:00

Have you ever felt in vain?
After all the efforts to be impressive
You had got the appreciations from others
But nothing from your precious
You still stuck in being meaningless

And what about being cast away?
You were surrounded by so many people
Among the joy and laughter
You have tried very hard to mingle
But then again, still
The invisible tears kept rolling from your eyes

Have you ever felt it too?

Shopping!!!

2003-11-15T10:13:00.000+07:00

Today I'm gonna go shopping!!!
Well, actually my mom asked me 2 buy somethings 4 her :>
It's the 20th day of Ramadhan 2day
In less than 2 weeks, it will be.....
IDUL FITRI!!!
I hope I can make it through the big day, amin.

KEY TO FRIENDSHIP

2003-11-15T09:04:00.000+07:00

It's Not The Hand You Hold
But How You Hold The Hand

It's Not In The Tears You Dry
But All The Reasons Why

It's Not How You Make A Person Smile
But Whether Or Not It's Worth While

It's Not In The Conversation
But In The Way You Listen

It's Not In The Laughter
But What Comes Before
And Everything After

The Key To Friendship
Is Not In Two People Relating
But In Two Hearts Communicating

Thank You For Being That Very Special Friend
Who Understands The Key To Friendship
And How To Unlock Everything Within

Finally

2003-11-13T03:18:00.000+07:00

Finally, I made it!!!
I have my own blog :>
And the story begins.....